It might be that I miss my mom or I'm feeling sad about my inability to have in n out but I am waning here. Believe it or not I'm down a pound and a half from yesterday even with my saltines! But yesterday my lindora lady told me I was doing great and that bummed me out for some reason. It's like there's no more fight in me but things haven't gotten more positive on the other side. I've lost weight, sure, but I feel like I've lost other things like my excitement for cooking whatever I want or being able to eat what I want whenever I want. I know that sounds backwards since I've made all of this progress but I'm just hoping things are better on the other side of this because this life is pretty boring. I eat every 2 to 3 hours, I drink three water bottles of iced tea, I have lettuce, meat, a vegetable and fruit for lunch and dinner. I made chimichurri flank steak tonight which was really good but I can't do that all the time. Man I don't like where this post is going. It just sounds so sad. Blech. I need my can-do attitude back. Blerg. There's a lot of sounds instead of words coming out of here. Maybe I just need a good nights rest.
I wish I could see my results so far. Do you know I've lost close to 12 lbs already? That's a lot! I'm going to try taking my picture again tomorrow to see if I can see a difference. Wish me luck, I'm feeling very pessimistic right now...
I'm thankfully getting my hair cut tomorrow. Maybe that'll make me feel like a new woman. See how long my bangs are??
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